Imagine That You Were Told by Your Parents That They Don’t Want You. I know How That Hurts and This Is My Story

Imagine that you don’t feel a gram of parental love in your childhood. Imagine that you were told by your parents that they don’t want you and that you are just a sticky bastard for them, that they regret that you were a part of their lives now. She is just the child of such parents.

She was born unplanned 34 years ago. As soon as she saw the life light, their parents let her know that she wasn’t welcomed into their lives. Her parents weren’t even 20 at that time. They often got drunk. Their apartment smelled of alcohol and was very messy. She often cried and was a hungry and malnourished baby. The people she depended on neglected her. Love was a foreign language in that apartment. They survived for several years in this way. The three of them, without love. The only love that her parents had was the love of alcohol.

In many moments, her hunger was the least of her problems. She was used to having her stomach full enough to survive. That child felt an another hunger, an emotional hunger. She cried and screamed for a hug. An honest hug is something powerful. He is so powerful that at that moment he can erase everything negatively. The baby cried harder and harder, hoping that one of the parents would hug it. Unfortunately, they didn’t know it or didn’t want it. They couldn’t bear in this drunken state listen to their daughter screaming because she is emotionally hungry.

Her father took her and threw her on the floor with glass bottles. Suddenly there was silence. She stopped crying. One glass bottle was shattered into 1000 pieces. Blood appeared. When the mother realized that her baby was not moving and was lying in a pool of blood, she called an ambulance.

Her hands were full of cuts, the glass pieces engraved deeply. The doctors heal her physical wounds. Her hands remind her whole life that she was just looking for a hug, which she never got. She physically recovered and continued her life in the orphanage.

In the orphanage it was better for her. She wasn’t hungry but she struggled with the emotional hunger again. She just wanted an honest hug. She didn’t get it in the children’s home. When she was six, she started school. This period was for her where she felt for the first time that she was somewhere welcome. She loved going to school and she made friends.

She received her first honest hug from friends in the schoolyard. Thanks to the right people who appeared in her life, she realized the wonderful feeling of “being loved in some way.” When she reached the age of 18 she became independent and learned to live life to the fullest. She enjoyed the little things and hugs.

She is now a beloved woman and a mother who is no longer emotionally hungry. Life finally embraced her with love and gave her dear people.

Embrace dear people, because an embrace is something powerful. And don’t take something so magical for granted. You never know what the day brings and what the night brings. Many people have remembered late to embrace a dear person …

(Author: Lejla Motoruga)