It seems like controversy is following YouTube star Shane Dawson wherever he goes and whatever he does. Shane has once again apologized for wearing blackface and using racial slurs, including the N-word, in his online video comedy sketches, saying he deserves to ‘lose everything’ as a result.
Dawson, who has maintained a presence on the video-sharing platform since 2008, posted a clip on Friday titled ‘Taking Accountability.’
Although he has apologized in the past for posting offensive content, Dawson said he only recently came to the realization that he erred.
‘I have done a lot of things in my past that I hate, that I wish I could make go away, that I tried to make go away by deleting videos, or un-tagging my Instagram, literally doing whatever I can to pretend those things didn’t happen. Because yes, I apologized for a lot of them but I’m 31, almost 32. Those apologies suck.’
‘I don’t know who that person is anymore. This video is coming from a place of just wanting to own up to my s***, wanting to own up to everything I’ve done on the internet that has hurt people, that has added to the problem, that has not been handled well. I should have been punished for things.’
Dawson, who is worth an estimated $12million, said that he regrets ‘all the racism that [he] put onto the internet,’ which includes satirical depictions of African Americans, Asians, and Mexicans.
‘Blackface was something that I did a lot. There’s no excuse for it. I didn’t do the work. I didn’t look into the history of it and why it’s so wrong, and why people were so upset. I can’t even imagine what it would be like to be Black, and see this white f****** guy do blackface, and the whole internet at that time being like, “LOL!” That’s insane and I am so sorry. I should lose everything for that,’ he remarked.
When talking about his use of the N-word, Dawson said his sketches promoted the ‘normalization’ of the epithet.
‘Me, as a white person, wearing a wig, playing a character, doing stereotypes and then saying the N-word is something that I should have probably lost my career for at the time. There’s no amount of apologizing that can take it away.’
Dawson said he is ‘willing to lose everything’ due to his actions.
‘At this point realizing how many people I’ve hurt, or how many people I’ve inspired to say awful things or do anything awful, to finally just own up to all of this and be accountable is worth losing everything to me,’ he said.
Dawson also apologized to James Charles, a YouTube star with some 14 million subscribers.
Last week, Dawson called Charles ‘egocentric’ and ‘power hungry’ on Twitter.
In the video he posted on Friday, Dawson said: ‘The part of the Twitter note that I regret more than anything in my entire life, was the part where I said that James deserves a slice of humble pie the size of the Empire State Building.’
He added: ‘I’m sorry, James. First of all, nobody deserves what happened. The whole internet ganging up on somebody, nobody deserved that. Who am I that somebody needs to be humbled? Me? Who am I to say that? I have literally put so much hate onto the internet over my last 15 years.’
Dawson also spoke about his friendship with Jeffree Star, another YouTube personality with a massive following.
Last year, an old website created by Star resurfaced in which he is seen slashing his wrists and referring to others as ‘Lipstick Nazi.’
In referring to his relationship with Star, Dawson said: ‘I’m aware that I hold my friends or people I care about to a lower standard than I hold other people. That’s wrong and I’m so sorry. I’m aware that I’m friends with some people that have done some bad things on the internet and I don’t condone it and I don’t co-sign it.’
Dawson said he’s not seeking forgiveness though he pledged to do better with his ‘actions.’
‘It’s okay to be upset at your past self for making mistakes, but also it’s okay if people don’t want to accept your apology and don’t want to support your anymore. That’s okay, too, and I understand.’