Caroline Flack’s mother decided to release an unseen Instagram post her daughter wrote in the days before her death explaining how her world had ‘collapsed’ after her arrest.
Her mother, Chris, claims that Caroline sent her this heartbreaking message at the end of January but that she was told by advisers not to post it.
The former Love Island presenter, who was found dead on Saturday, pour her heart and explained that the domestic incident was an accident:
“Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen. I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is … It was an accident. I have been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time, but I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident. The reason I am talking today is because my family can’t take any more. I’ve lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment. I can’t spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.”
Caroline also added: “For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me it’s become the normal. I’ve been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life – for my whole life. I’ve accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it’s all part of my job. No complaining. The problem with brushing things under the carpet is … they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.”
She also apologized for the impact on those close to her, writing:
“I’m so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through. I’m not thinking about ‘how I’m going to get my career back’. I’m thinking about how I’m going to get mine and my family’s life back.”
“Caroline just wanted her little voice to be heard” said Chris.
Chris also claims that “so many untruths were out there” but that this is how Caroline felt.
“Carrie was surrounded by love and friends but this was just too much for her” said Carolines devastated mother.