Billie Eilish’s producer-songwriter brother, Finneas O’Connell, 22, revealed that he was “insanely concerned” when he first heard the song Everything I Wanted.
“It was a period where I was really worried about my sister, and I felt like an enabler in helping her write a song as black as that song was,” he told New York Times magazine.
“Like the musical equivalent of giving an alcoholic another beer: ‘I’m not going to support this.'”
Allegedly the song was inspired by a dream Eilish had in which she jumped off a building.
“I was in a really bad place mentally, so the lyrics “I had a dream I got everything I wanted” are literal.” the singer revealed.
Eilish has been open about her struggles with depression and has spoken in the past about how Everything I Wanted was inspired by suicide.
Eilish recently admitted that she and her brother got into a huge argument over that song.
“Because I admitted something that I was, uh. It wasn’t a physical thing I was admitting. I don’t know how to put it without actually saying it, and I don’t want to actually say it. But it was me admitting to something that was very serious about my depression. A very serious step that I was admitting that I was planning on taking.”
“Finneas and I both had the idea to make the song about each other, instead of just me and how I was feeling,” Eilish said. “We had a complete block, and the way we got through it was to make it about us as siblings and what we mean to each other.”